being green.

i dont mean green with envy either.

in my last year of highschool i was presented with a book ...



i thought it was gunna be a book filled with uplifting quotes blah blaaaah.
&&it was.

but what i didnt realize is that this book would actually inspire me to be a better person.

in this small little book through quotes and songs the life of jim henson is explored.
well not exactly his life ... but more so how he lived his life.
things that he believed in.

reading this book helped me become more comfortable with myself, more determined, more driven it taught me a lot. I actually look up to this guy Jim Henson.

but my favorite part of the book is the words to the song "It's not so Easy Being Green"

If you listen to the song theres an underlying message.
idk ... sooo im inviting all to be green w/me.

watch my beloved kermy sing the song.
=]

oor watch ray!

what i realized ...

alright ...
listen.

right now since im off relationships ...
i thought of something, realized something.

&&i just need to vent on it.

this is gunna be pretty short not too long at all.


soo i realize, that all the time in relationships i have been on the givin end of everything. i invest all my time and effort into someone and take care of the other person.

providin time, money, energy, most of all LOVE to someone.

but i mean what about me??
not to say that the other person didn't at all.
just ... hardly.
idk kinda hard to explain.

but i mean all this time i was taking care of them, no one was taking care of me.

not even me.
soooo eff that.
new day.
im taking care of me, until someone decides that they want to do it for me.
&&i in return will take care of them.
&&&we will take care of each other; hahahaaaa.


idk perhaps im livin in a fantasy world, but i mean ... SOMEONES gotta believe.

ah welp
BEE*

the most BEE*autifulist thing in this world.

yes, it's been a while ...
i know, i know.

AH welp, sooo i havent really been gettin on the computer as much anymore because i'm not HOME. i'm stuck in south carolina where i HATE to be.

people that know me, know WHY i don't wanna be here.

but anywhoots ...
since i've been backed up on blogs i decided to pull a SAMcharitar and get an empty notebook. (karmaisoneUGLYbitch.blogspot.com)

so i bought one.
&&when i got home i opened it&&left it on my bed after being summoned.

so when i came back i sat down on my bed&&i just looked at that empty page.


&&i looked, &&looked.

&&i realized that, to me, this empty page was beautiful.

like, an empty page represents so much possibilities.
that empty page can hold SOOOO many ideas, become anything it wants to.

&&if that idea doesnt work out ...
you can just start over.
rip that page out, keep it for later ...
it doesnt matter, because you can just get another page.

develop a new thought.
i mean every great thing started out as just an idea ...
developed on an empty page.

so, imma write down my ideas&&goals on an empty page
&&watch them become great things.

eeh, just a thought ya'll.
=]

just lil ol' be today.
C*Royal is on vacaaaay.
BEE*

everygirl remix TMLA EDITION.

soo me, steph, noelle and sam all made a remix to everygirl.

titled everyboy.
TMLA edition.
it speaks for its self.
really.

sam: wayne
noelle: drake
me: jae millz/gudda gudda
steph: mack maine

I want a tall dark strong buff man

to Open up my legs then filet minon my pussy

he can go in, straight ham my pussy

cuz I let him in, he don’t own my pussy

imma throw it back & buss it open like I’m sposed to

nxgga I’m a bad bitch

now come here let me show u

u gon’ be a juice fiend

them boys they call me juicy

ell em keep they tongue on my *GASP* theyd get to kno me

HA!

But they cant call me hoochie

I wont fxck the whole group

Nxgga I’m no groupie

My sex game the SWEET*est

My head, that’s a secret

I promise

I am one of mary Louis finest

BUT ANYWAY

I love me some chocolate

& I don’t need me no milk boy

You alone is just fine yes

Imma give u an assignment

I let u (eat me out, I throw it back, eat me out)

hook:

cuz he like her and he like her too, he like her, and he like her too

cuz he like her and he like her too, he like her, and he like her too

cuz we know that u fxcked every grl in the world, cuz u jus tryna fxck every grl in the world, yeah we kno that u fxcked every grl in the world, yeah u jus tryna fxck every grl in the world

I be bouncing up and down,

he slappin on my ass ‘n,

nibbling up on the kitty

giggling and laughin

all my shorties care about is partyin and fashion

thinkin u can hit it baby but unfortunately u r wroooong

tmla these grls r tiiimeless

young money bout hear to this ish and try to siiign us

the type a shorty u need, boy it aint hard to fiiind us

badder than the chick u got, boo lets b hoooonest

u want me u want me

cuz I got it all baby tell me what u don’t see

tryna live yall cuz my life is beautiful

jus like tboz, boy I aint neva been no silly hoooooe

these niggas bout pussy pussy pussy

buyin alchol aint impressin me at allll

damn

and everytime u think u got a winner

my grls will come around and make a nigga reconsider

hook

niggas say im disrespectful but im buzzed like a bumbleBEE, 

trynna lick the honey pot, wishin hopin he could see ...

but i dont wanna fxck everyboy in the world .... 

not a model, not a singer. fxck that shxt bxtch imma diva.

aint no high sadiddy(sp?) chick, im in college aint no skeezer, 

freaky so if we fxck wanna be on top, eva the diva!!

my role model is MEEEE

these niggas just want BEE

just wait to get the first kiss

i'll give ya ass the business

HAAA!!

me&&my girls god gift like christmas

talk shxt, smooth skin, fye hair, thick ass

nah we aint feeling none'ah ya'll

no need to check my call log

aint wastin time on none'ah ya'll

ya'll be freakin every weekend

trynna get at me, when ya know ya girl is deep in ... 

love, &&look you trynna get ya pimpin on

bring that shxt around me&&watch yo ass get shitted on

hook

And nigga I'm Chinky ayye ayye ayye

Columbus Short

Shemar Moore

Chad Michael Murray

Hah

Trey Songz

For free louis bags I'd give Fab all-nighters

In about 4 years, holla at me Diggy Simmons

I don't discriminate, no not at all

Shaq a giant if he tweet me I'll give him some

I exchange twitpics with the retards

And I got #signedtoyoungmoney cause she aree

Chink-izzo

Baby

Cause she areeee Chinkizzoo

Babyyyy

no really we need to be signed to young money.

=]

crazy blessed.

okay im gunna keep this short.

the concert was really good, i enjoyed it a lot.

BUUUUT THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY.

we got to go to the radio station right.

and i got to talkin to the radio personality, not gunna say her name.

but she works for majic 107.5

its all run by radio one, so they actually own 3 stations in atl.

majic 107.5

hot 107.9

&&praise 102.5

=].

so i was offered an opportunity to intern there and shadow a radio personality.

im too HYPE.

like yesterday was a blessed day for real.

i mean everyday is a blessed day, god woke me up.

but yesterday??

crazy blessed.

C*Royal

so excited!

mkaaaaay.

soooo, my (former/ex) stepfather is uber cool.

hes apart of an acapella group.

where i learned a lot of my musical skills.

www.naturallyseven.com

the skills i dont really showcase; haha.

but i can harmonize really well.

anywhoots, they are pretty popular in europe.

BUT every now&&then they have a show out here and i go.

soooo, i'm going to spend the whole day with him on friday.

AND TOO MY SURPRISE, they are going to be at a radio station that morning.

my mom mentioned to him that i wanted to get into radio broadcasting.

SOOO, pappy dearest called ahead&&they offered to show me around.

::EXCITEMENT::

soooo im happy, i bought a new dress today.

haha, so imma wear that.

idk what shoes im going to wear, but i assume i'll figure it out.

=]

so excited!

C*Royal