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happy bdayy to me?!

no really fxck birthdays.

idky i think people are gunna care as much about my bdayy as i do about theres.

but ANYWAY.

some updates:

1. met the OTHER side of my family.

my grandmother is so sweet. i love her -- great hugs.

my younger brother&sister are great. my sister was a little shy, but thats cool.

brother is taller then me -___-

my older brother and i are like peas&&carrots.

i love that dude, he understands me on a certain level. we're a lot alike and i love it.

<-- us.

2. im attending uscb in the spring. yayy.

hopefully i do awesomely well and end up at columbia in the summer or fall.

i really need this, because home is not an option. im ready to blow my brains out.

3. my bdayy has sucked royally.

i didnt get to do ANYTHING i wanted to. not even go to the muh fxckin movies.

over some trivial shxt. TRIVIAL. because apparently my birthday should be about other people. -___-

my grandmother raw ass looked me in the face and said that i should be asking her what could be done for her.

i mean im not a selfish person or anything, all i ask is that im able to do wtf i wanna do on my birthday.

how you tell me you dont have time to drop me around the corner, and then you go out and go shopping ...

right up the street ...

from where i asked you to drop me ...

cmon son. cooooooooome ON suuuuuhn!!! the hell?!

im not asking you to dedicate ya day to me, im asking you to take 15 minutes to drop me off, and another 15 to pick me up. inFXCKINcredible.

but im sorry, im being selfish and i need to drop the "all about me attitude" -___-

i think im more angry at myself for ACTUALLY thinking i was gunna have a nice bdayy.

how wrong was i. shxt.

im so ready for this fxckin year to be OVER. its been the lamest year ever lol.

really, its almost funny.