LOVE get real.

a little backing story: i came up with this whole post&&then i got sidetracked with stuff w/my brother. ( =] btw hes cool just like his little sister haha still got a lot more to learn about him but i think we finna be cool) soo yea, i started watchin this movie called “The Holiday” ... very cute movie. so in the beginning of the movie one of the characters played by kate winslet is narrating&&she says the following to introduce the movie. since it kind of went with my post i altered it a little bit to fit in there. i still have yet to have good rant material ... no drama (which is good), so this will be good enough to at least spark conversation i hope.

"I have found almost everything ever written about love to be true. 

Shakespeare said that 'journey's end in lovers meeting.' 

what an extraordinary thought. 

personally i have not experienced anything remotely close to that but I'm more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more then anyone reatlly should. 

I’m constantly amazed by its shear power to alter and define our lives. 

It was shakespeare that also said 'love is blind'

now that is something i KNOW to be true.

For some quite inexplicably love fades.

For others, love is simply lost.

but then of course, love can also be found.

even if just for the night.

&&then theres another kind of love.

the cruelest kind.

the one that almost kills its victims.

its called unrequited love.

of that i am an expert.

most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other.

but what about the rest of us??

what about our stories???

those of us who fall in love alone???

we are the victims of the one sided affair.

we are the cursed of the loved ones.

we are the UNLOVED ones.

the walking wounded.

the handicapped with out the advance of a great parking space."

now i know, bestie is gunna say im crazy ...
&&maybe i am.

but i really DID love dude.
like ... i might have actually really been IN love with dude.

&&love can really blind you.
SERIOUS wool over ya eyes.

its funny how shxt never turns out how you plan it to.
we just really believed that "we" were it.
like, meeting each other was kinda like the first day of the rest of our lives.

we planned our life, kids, whole shaaaaBANG.

&&we were crazy.
&&&we were kids.
&&&&we loved each other.

i cant speak for him on whether or not he was really IN love or not.
so im not exactly sure if my love was unrequited or not.

but i can DEFiNiTELY feel where this person is coming from.


i mean at the end of the day i like to think that all the feelings i had for him were real&&returned.

i mean ... look.

theres things that i could talk to him about that i couldn't talk to anyone else about.
there was something that i shared with him that i hadn't shared with any other guy before him.
 ... or any guy after him.

&&i find that incredibly cooooool.
&&i have complete faith i will find it again. call me crazy.
i admit that at times i may have takin it for granted
or pushed him away ... what have you buuut end of the day ...

i appreciated the whole situation for what it was.
im glad to say i went through it, i learned a lot.


from the situation, &&from him.
&&apart of me will always love him i suppose.

i guess me saying all of this is to say, love can be tough.

it can knock you down&&bring you up all at the same time.

but whichever one it does,

appreciate it for what it is no matter how long it lasts.

yes, APPRECIATE it. 

even if it knocks you down ... you live&&you learn.
thats life.
it BEE* like that sometimes.
shxt gets real.
haha

LOVE gets real.

C*Royal